Monday, July 06, 2009

Patiently waiting

While seeing people posting up their images and videos on facebook, flickr, blogs etc, I am still without any latest material to show. Right now, I let my mouth do the talking, promoting and pitching. I would like to do something but it seems that my equipment are not all here yet. I am a bit desperate to come up with something and I don't know when will I be able to come up with my own material. 

Is it true that you need to look at your competitors just to know what level you are at? Especially in this line of industry. I am figuring out what made me jumped into this industry? Nowadays I found so many contradictions within me. Deep inside my being, I want to do this for the sake of loving and learning more about videography and how I can come up with an inspiring videos that could touch thousands of heart that awaits for the next journey of their lifetime. But on the surface, I began noticing that I am comparing myself to others and trying to be on top of what they did and wanted to do even better. I am worried that these two feelings will collide and create a fraction that will someday brings effect to my passion in videography. 

Anyway, this week will be my soul searching moment where I will try to regain and rejuvenate what I think that I have lost or slowly dying for these past few weeks.